Recently, something unpleasant happened with somebody very important to me and it made me feel really helpless and lost because it seemed like it was beyond my ability to repair the damage done in him, in me and in us.
I guess it doesn’t help that I am not the one who’s good at cheering others up like him. I’m usually blue. Like Sadness in Inside Out.
Yea, this is me.
Do you think the movie could have went on if Joy was not joyful? Yea, I doubt so too.
And that was how I felt, because he was my joy.
Things are alright now and I want to believe that something good came out of it. Deeper understanding, deeper trust, deeper love. Because we both cared, we both tried very hard and we still love. And perhaps more importantly, at least to me, I feel that we have come to realise through this episode that a r/s is indeed a partnership that requires both party to put in effort in order for it work. Just one party trying is just not enough.
In addition, I know that I can be Joy sometimes and he can be Sadness sometimes. We can take turns and be strong for each other when the other’s battery run low. *flex muscle
So anyway, I came across the song this morning while I was on spotify and well, it got stuck.
詞： 饒雪漫 曲：周興哲
And that’s how we know I love you.